Hi,
I was thinking about doing such a post a long time ago since ive played for more than a year at the server and i hope i can maybe help people that are struggling in life with the similiar conditions i had.
My parents traveled in germany after the second world war, i was born and raised in germany but my parents didnt speak german and ive never learned the language my parents spoke, my mother speaks german decently but my father doesnt speak it good enough, i actually feel distanced from him. That means i dont dislike him but i think as a father he could have teach me some things. He usually went abroad to visit his brother and sister frequently so there was only a short period of time that i seen him at home. So i mostly got raised by my mother at that time and basically i had to teach all the stuff and skills all by myself, starting in the Kindergarten.
Starting at the age of 9, my brother and parents were sometimes very abusive and they usually beat me up for doing wrong things like not fully eating the food i got served or doing 1 little grammar mistake in an essay. They also prohibited me to play computer games up to the age of 17. But i still did whenever they werent home and i was very good at strategic games like league of legends(i hit the second highest rank). But when my brother found out that i am actually playing video games in his absence he put a password on my old computer. To add on to that, my mother didnt allow to meet friends outside of the house, so i ended up smoking cigarettes and stealing and drinking alcohol when i was 14. But eventually i got caught for stealing a Jaegermeister bottle and i ended up doing social work and getting beaten up by my parents and my hands got stabbed with a knife. So i ended up mostly watching the same tv shows over and over again.
Also was on the verge of getting kicked out of school on several occasions .
I also had to live in a poor quarter of germany, as a child i always had to pass the brothels and drunk and/or drug addicted guys and i also saw people getting beaten up or nearly killed, i was in a constant fear.
All this together put me in a social trap, a trap where i cant meet friends irl anymore because i dont feel comfortable being around people but also get bored and depressed if i spend most of my time at my computer. And ive did asked for help several times in my life, for instance my teacher, talked to my parents, telling my friends that i had at school but nothing rly changed about the physical abusive behaviour of my parents and older brother.
But life did got better for me, i managed to finish school and even got into university and i am nearly done, i also met some good guys there and i met this wonderful community.
All in all, i just want to say that even with the worst starting conditions theres always something worthwile to wait and live for and life will get better for you.
I was thinking about doing such a post a long time ago since ive played for more than a year at the server and i hope i can maybe help people that are struggling in life with the similiar conditions i had.
My parents traveled in germany after the second world war, i was born and raised in germany but my parents didnt speak german and ive never learned the language my parents spoke, my mother speaks german decently but my father doesnt speak it good enough, i actually feel distanced from him. That means i dont dislike him but i think as a father he could have teach me some things. He usually went abroad to visit his brother and sister frequently so there was only a short period of time that i seen him at home. So i mostly got raised by my mother at that time and basically i had to teach all the stuff and skills all by myself, starting in the Kindergarten.
Starting at the age of 9, my brother and parents were sometimes very abusive and they usually beat me up for doing wrong things like not fully eating the food i got served or doing 1 little grammar mistake in an essay. They also prohibited me to play computer games up to the age of 17. But i still did whenever they werent home and i was very good at strategic games like league of legends(i hit the second highest rank). But when my brother found out that i am actually playing video games in his absence he put a password on my old computer. To add on to that, my mother didnt allow to meet friends outside of the house, so i ended up smoking cigarettes and stealing and drinking alcohol when i was 14. But eventually i got caught for stealing a Jaegermeister bottle and i ended up doing social work and getting beaten up by my parents and my hands got stabbed with a knife. So i ended up mostly watching the same tv shows over and over again.
Also was on the verge of getting kicked out of school on several occasions .
I also had to live in a poor quarter of germany, as a child i always had to pass the brothels and drunk and/or drug addicted guys and i also saw people getting beaten up or nearly killed, i was in a constant fear.
All this together put me in a social trap, a trap where i cant meet friends irl anymore because i dont feel comfortable being around people but also get bored and depressed if i spend most of my time at my computer. And ive did asked for help several times in my life, for instance my teacher, talked to my parents, telling my friends that i had at school but nothing rly changed about the physical abusive behaviour of my parents and older brother.
But life did got better for me, i managed to finish school and even got into university and i am nearly done, i also met some good guys there and i met this wonderful community.
All in all, i just want to say that even with the worst starting conditions theres always something worthwile to wait and live for and life will get better for you.
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